Saturday, 25 January 2020

My Top 5 Albums of 2019

Just as I did last week, I'm taking this weekend off from the 30-day book challenge, as I feel I need the time to rest and get a head start on the posts for next week. However, I still wanted to write a little something less demanding for this blog today.

So as a break from the more serious, book-related posts, today we're going to do something completely different: a list of my favourite musical albums released in 2019. Although I've posted plenty of lists on blogs before, I don't normally write much about music, as I feel it's not a topic I know much about - unless of course I'm feeling angry about Taylor Swift, which prompted me to write my last music-based list post. So this post will just be my favourite albums of the last decade, not necessarily the ones I think are objectively the best (if there even is such a thing). It's also a bit late in the month to be doing an annual roundup, but ignore that. As someone once famously said, it's my blog and I'll post what I want to.

Now, let's get into the list. I've put these in ascending order, so number one is my ultimate favourite album of the year.

Top 5 Albums of 2019


5. Clarity - Kim Petras

I mentioned Kim Petras briefly in my aforementioned previous music post, and I stand by my cringy-but-true statement that "she makes absolute bops". There are plenty of fun, danceable tracks on this album, as you would expect from such a reliably catchy artist, like "Clarity" and "Got My Number". On the other hand, songs like "Icy" and "Personal Hell" look at the emotional vulnerability that can exist underneath a cool façade. Come for the infectious rhythms, stay for the feelings.

Favourite song: "Personal Hell"



4. Cuz I Love You - Lizzo

This album contains several of Lizzo's recent hits, including "Juice" and "Truth Hurts" - both memorable tracks, beloved for their messages of self-love and positivity. Yet songs like "Crybaby" and "Exactly How I Feel (ft. Gucci Mane)" don't shy away from the fact that even Lizzo has her bad days. Still, she always comes back to her signature theme of acceptance and confidence, making this one of my favourite feel-good albums. 

Favourite song: "Jerome"


3. Love + Fear  - MARINA

Love + Fear marks MARINA's return to music after a three year hiatus that started in 2016, after the release of her last album Froot. She might be performing under a different name now (the artist was previously known as Marina and the Diamonds), and the scope of her music has at times broadened to include the whole of humanity (as in "To Be Human"), but her music is as unique and deeply-felt as ever.

Favourite song: "You"




2. Norman Fucking Rockwell! - Lana Del Rey

This has been one of Lana Del Rey's most critically-acclaimed albums to date, and for good reason. It's got the classic glamour-coated melancholy we know and love, this time presented in a little over an hour's worth of musically-gorgeous songs with some truly brilliant lyrics.

Favourite song: "Fuck it I love you"


1. Dedicated - Carly Rae Jepsen

If the only Carly Rae Jepsen song you know of is still "Call Me Maybe", you need to catch up. Since the release of her album Emotion in 2015, she's been consistently putting out songs that perfectly mix contemporary and retro pop into a combination that I honestly believe marks the zenith of modern music. I thought Emotion couldn't possibly be topped, but Dedicated proved me wrong.

Favourite song: "Want You in My Room"


So, those were my favourite albums of 2019. There are two conclusions to be drawn from this exercise: 1. Even if 2019 was not a good year for the general state of the world, it was great for music; and 2. I love pop music. If you'd like to listen to these albums for yourself, an easy way to do so is to listen to the Spotify playlist I created that contains all five of them in one easy-to-listen-to collection. See the bottom of this post for the link.

Finally, If anyone reading this wants to share their favourite album(s) of 2019 with me, I'd be very interested to hear them. You can let me know either by commenting here or by messaging me directly, as I know most of you who read this have a way of getting in touch with me personally. 

Have a good weekend, everyone!



Friday, 24 January 2020

A Book That Reminds Me of Home // 30-Day Book Challenge - Day 10

Today is the tenth day of the 30-day book challenge, in which I will be writing about a different book or book series every day for 30 days, with each book chosen according to the daily prompt. Today's prompt is: "a book that reminds you of home".

I feel that I've shot myself in the foot a bit here in terms of blog post topics.

As you can see from the intro above, today's challenge is "a book that reminds you of home". In order to choose a book for this prompt, I decided to reflect a little on what "home" means to me. After a bit of thought, I decided that home for me means where my family is. Unfortunately, I've already talked about my family, in my blog post about My Family and Other Animals. Clearly, I did not think this through.

I say all that to say, if this post seems slightly repetitive or similar to Day 8 of this blog challenge, please forgive me. It's been a long week.

Now, without any more excuses, here is my choice for today's challenge: Harry Potter and the Philosopher's Stone.


The Harry Potter books have been a significant part of my family's life since the first book came out, when it was initially only my mum and my brother who read the books. As the years went by, most of us began to get hooked on the series as well. At the same time, we all kept up with the release of the new films, religiously going to see each one at the cinema when it came out. Several of us even bought copies of The Cursed Child simultaneously when that (awful) script was published. For many years, it was possibly second only to Star Trek in terms of the media which we were most unanimously fans of.

In part because of its association with my family and my childhood, the Harry Potter books and films have long been a source of comfort and nostalgia for me. This isn't solely owed to my family, however. Part of the reason the HP world is so reassuringly familiar is due to the stories itself, which I know so well by now that coming back to these stories is, in some ways, like returning to a family home. I know the place, the people, the history of what has happened here, and I supposedly know what to expect when I revisit it. Supposedly.

There is a saying, that you can't go home again. It's like that quote about how no man steps in the same river twice, as by the time he takes another step both he and the river are changed. Home is much the same. As fondly as we might remember it from our childhood, when we return to it older and wiser, it may be difficult to see in the same light. I find that this has very much happened to me with the Harry Potter series, and it is primarily due to one person: J. K. Rowling herself.

To be completely frank, I was initially hesitant about writing this post. There has been a lot of controversy surrounding Rowling lately, to the point that many people (myself included) became wary of giving any more support - financial or otherwise - to the Harry Potter franchise.

If you are unaware of what's been going on with J. K. Rowling, basically it's this: she's a transphobe. If you want more detail than that, Aja Romano and Katlyn Burns have both written excellent articles on the subject, explaining what happened and why people are angry. Romano's article particularly focuses on the timeline of Rowling's self-embarrassment and the response of HP fans to it, while Burns' piece puts Rowling's transphobia in the broader context of rising TERF (trans-exclusionary radical feminist) ideology in the UK. I would recommend reading both if you have the time.

While this recent event was definitely the most egregious of Rowling's gaffes, it was by no means the first. There has been suspicion building over her possibly being transphobic for a while now, as the articles mentioned above explain. On top of that, people have been critical of Rowling for a number of other reasons, from her endless retconning of the source material (in case you haven't kept up, Dumbledore is gay and also wizards and witches used to soil themselves in public) to racism that apparently cropped up in the original books, Pottermore, and the new films. For the HP fandom, Rowling has become increasingly like an out-of-touch old relative who either doesn't know or doesn't care how offensive they keep being. In Rowling's case, I imagine it's a bit of both.

Now, I don't have the time nor the inclination to get into a debate over "separating the art from the artist" and whether or not we can continue to love Harry Potter while avoiding supporting a harmfully transphobic celebrity. I simply felt that I couldn't write this post without addressing the "Rowling issue". Yet in some ways, including this in a post about a book that reminds me of home makes perfect sense. Like I said earlier, returning to media that we loved as children isn't always easy. We see things with new eyes, and what we see isn't always as pure as we remembered. This is something that we all have to deal with in returning to those things we remember fondly, be they books, homes, or even people. Whether or not those things can continue to hold the same place in our heart afterwards is something only we can decide.

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I would like to end this post by sharing a video on J. K. Rowling by one of my favourite YouTubers. Even if you're not sure how to approach the Harry Potter books in light of this controversy, one thing we can always do is support trans creators, like the incredibly talented Kat Blaque.


Thursday, 23 January 2020

A Book I Thought I Wouldn't Like But Ended Up Loving // 30-Day Book Challenge - Day 9

Today is the ninth day of the 30-day book challenge, in which I will be writing about a different book or book series every day for 30 days, with each book chosen according to the daily prompt. Today's prompt is: "a book you thought you wouldn't like but ended up loving".

When I first went to university to study English literature (and history too, but that's less relevant here), one of my biggest fears was that seriously researching and analysing texts would cause me to eventually lose my long-held enthusiasm for reading. My fear was so great that I ended up rambling about this for a solid minute to a woman I'd never met before during an activity that was part of a personal development seminar. I must have appeared very worked up about it, because said woman took me aside afterwards and sincerely asked me if I was okay, with the same look of concern as if I'd gone on about my uncontrollable urge to eat pencil lead for 60 seconds.

Thankfully, for both myself and that woman, I left university with an even greater passion for literature than the one I initially went in with. This is not to say that my concerns had been completely unfounded, however. One of my worries about studying English at university level was that I'd be forced to read books I didn't enjoy, an experience that I know has put many a blossoming book-lover off reading in school. Although it didn't destroy my love for reading, I did have to study several books at university that I wasn't overly keen on. One of those books was Image, Music, Text by Roland Barthes, and it is relevant to my choice of book for today's prompt.

Image, Music, Text is not the book I chose for the challenge; that would be A Lover's Discourse by Roland Barthes, the same author. However, Image, Music, Text is the reason I didn't think I'd like A Lover's Discourse - and, since this post is about a book I thought I wouldn't like but ended up loving, I feel the "thought I wouldn't like" part is worth as much attention as the "ended up loving" bit.



So, let me tell you a little bit about Image, Music, Text. It's a collection of essays by Roland Barthes, a French literary theorist. While I was not a fan of Barthes - at least not during my first year of university - myself and other students ended up reading a fair amount of his work for two reasons: because he's an incredibly influential theorist, and because one of our lecturers was borderline obsessed with him.

The first Barthes text I was exposed to was an excerpt from Image, Music, Text in which the author attempted to break down the way sentences in a language function to the point that they were basically as small and as easy to understand as atoms. At least, I think that's what it was about. To be honest with you, I found it so confusing as to be almost unintelligible. I didn't understand what Barthes was getting at and, even worse, I didn't understand why he was trying to get at it. I felt that I was being exposed to the sort of needlessly complex analysis that everyone stereotypes the literature theory world as producing. I decided then that I didn't like Image, Music, Text and I didn't like Roland Barthes, and that (I thought) was the end of it.

Then, a year or so later, I was assigned A Lover's Discourse. This reading was chosen by the same lecturer who gave us Image, Music, Text some semesters before, as he evidently had a Barthes theory for every occasion. Being the devoted student that I was, I begrudgingly got myself a copy despite my lack of enthusiasm and settled down to be bored and confused by this supposed giant of literary analysis. Then the unexpected happened: I loved it.

Let me give you a quick overview of what A Lover's Discourse is about, via Goodreads:
The language we use when we are in love is not a language we speak, for it is addressed to ourselves and to our imaginary beloved. It is a language of solitude, of mythology, of what Barthes calls an 'image repertoire'.

This book revives - beyond the psychological or clinical enterprises which have characterised such researches in our culture - the notion of the amorous subject. It will be enjoyed and understood by two groups of readers: those who have been in love (or think they have, which is the same thing), and those who have never been in love (or think they have not, which is the same thing). This book might be considered, in its restless search for authorities and examples, which range from Nietzsche to Zen, from Ruysbroek to Debussy, an encyclopaedia of that affirmative discourse which is the lover's.
At first this all sounds like philosophical jargon, but this book to me ranks among the very best works of literary theory I have read. Among its other great qualities, one of the things I love most about it is its relatability. Perhaps this is too simplistic of a compliment to give a book by such an acclaimed theorist, but I mean it entirely positively.

I disliked Image, Music, Text because I felt it covered issues I didn't care about in a way I didn't understand. A Lover's Discourse, on the other hand, addresses a topic that I care about deeply both in literature and in real life, and it does so in a way that made sense not only intellectually but also viscerally. In A Lover's Discourse, Barthes puts words to feelings that I hadn't previously known how to articulate - and if that isn't one of the purposes of writing, I don't know what is.

So perhaps the reason I much preferred A Lover's Discourse to Image, Music, Text is simply because of the subject matter. Perhaps it was the time in which I encountered it; you'd be surprised what a year of studying literary theory can do for your understanding of critical texts. It's possible that if I were to read Image, Music, Text now I would enjoy it as much as I did A Lover's Discourse - although I'm not sure that's likely. Lastly, perhaps the moral of this story is simply not to judge an author by only one of their works. If you do, you might be missing out on a book you end up loving, as I nearly did with A Lover's Discourse.

Wednesday, 22 January 2020

Most Overrated Book // 30-Day Book Challenge - Day 8

Today is the eighth day of the 30-day book challenge, in which I will be writing about a different book or book series every day for 30 days, with each book chosen according to the daily prompt. Today's prompt is: "most overrated book".

I think you can tell a lot about a person by the books they consider overrated. Knowing what books someone likes and hates is revealing too, of course, but branding a book "overrated" has so many more layers. For one, to think a book is overrated means you have to think it is generally rated highly in the first place. This can give us insight into the sort of literary scene the person engages in. For example, I couldn't tell you what fantasy books are overrated; I simply don't know which ones are considered good or bad, since I am not at all involved with the fantasy book community. Secondly, do they consider a book that's highly-rated to be one that's critically-acclaimed, commercially-popular, or both? Finally, why do they think the book is overrated? This can be the most revealing question, in that it shows what traits they believe are overvalued in books, and thus which traits they themselves deem insufficiently appealing. Asking someone what books they think are overrated reveals how they perceive the views of society; in the process, it reveals how they believe themselves to be separate from them. Their choice of book is always as much a reflection on them as it is on the book itself.

With all that said, my choice for this challenge is Fahrenheit 451 by Ray Bradbury. 


When I say that Fahrenheit 451 is overrated, I mean that it is given too much praise within the realm of dystopian fiction. In order to understand my argument for this, you will need to have some idea of the novel's plot. Here is your usual Goodreads summary, as is becoming the custom here on Extra Libris:
Guy Montag is a fireman. In his world, where television rules and literature is on the brink of extinction, firemen start fires rather than put them out. His job is to destroy the most illegal of commodities, the printed book, along with the houses in which they are hidden. 
Montag never questions the destruction and ruin his actions produce, returning each day to his bland life and wife, Mildred, who spends all day with her television “family.” But then he meets an eccentric young neighbor, Clarisse, who introduces him to a past where people didn’t live in fear and to a present where one sees the world through the ideas in books instead of the mindless chatter of television.  
When Mildred attempts suicide and Clarisse suddenly disappears, Montag begins to question everything he has ever known. He starts hiding books in his home, and when his pilfering is discovered, the fireman has to run for his life.
Say what you like about Fahrenheit 451 - and I fully intend to - but you can't deny it has an alluring concept. The idea of book-burning is a striking image and so loaded with meaning that an author has to exert little to no effort to make it an effective symbol. That said, if the burning of books is a subject that comes with great depth to begin with, my complaint about Fahrenheit 451 is that it fails to go any deeper. This is my main issue with the novel: it is, in short, a shallow book.

This is a novel that reveres literature unconditionally. It presents the burning of books and the symbolic destruction of knowledge as being a great loss, with the recovery of this knowledge presented as perhaps the only possible remedy for the dystopian society it's set in. However, what exactly makes these books so valuable is not really addressed. Books are valuable because they are books, the novel seems to say. Furthermore, the particular books presented as valuable are generally the "greats" of the western canon, predominately those written by white male authors - the only exception to this that I can recall appearing in the novel is the Bible, so make of that what you will. The only clear indication of their value is typically presented in opposition to the vices of Bradbury's dystopia, where people stare at television screens all day and thus are depicted as not engaging in anything intellectually meaningful. The idea of "books good, censorship bad" as a message is communicated effectively enough simply in the image of book burning, so the fact that Bradbury fails to go beyond the basics of this in a full-length novel  (except to say that television is bad too) is quite remarkable.

I feel it is worth mentioning here, for those of you who believe in the importance of the author's opinion on their work, that Bradbury has infamously appeared to change his mind several times over the years with regard to the message of Fahrenheit 451. A few years after it was first published in 1953, Bradbury said in a radio interview that it was written as a response to McCarthyism and censorship. Decades later, Bradbury began to claim that this was not the case and that the book was actually meant to be a commentary on mass media and how television is bad for people intellectually. Before that, in his 1979 coda to the book, Bradbury directed his ire at minorities and their apparently censorial impact on literature, writing:
There is more than one way to burn a book. And the world is full of people running about with lit matches. Every minority, be it Baptist/Unitarian, Irish/Italian/Octogenarian/Zen Buddhist, Zionist/Seventh-day Adventist, Women's Lib/Republican, Mattachine/Four Square Gospel feels it has the will, the right, the duty to douse the kerosene, light the fuse.
Later, in a 1994 interview, Bradbury had the following exchange with Anne Gasior:
Question: How does the story of Fahrenheit 451 stand up in 1994?

R.B.: It works even better because we have political correctness now. Political correctness is the real enemy these days. The black groups want to control our thinking and you can’t say certain things. The homosexual groups don’t want you to criticize them. It’s thought control and freedom of speech control.  
Perhaps this evident dislike of minority groups goes some way towards explaining why Fahrenheit 451 only ever glorifies the work of white, mostly straight, male writers. Perhaps it is also a testament to how prophetic Bradbury can be, as so many of his fans claim he is. After all, he would most likely consider me a member of "the homosexual groups", and here I am predictably attacking his book.

Let us return to the issue of Bradbury's flip-flopping over the true meaning of his novel. One could charitably say that so many meanings can be derived from Fahrenheit 451 because it is a book that addresses many themes and can be applied to many situations. Less kindly, one might say that Fahrenheit 451 is such a thematically and rhetorically weak book that you can slap its generic message on any currently-relevant political issue and claim that this is what it's been about all along. Take your pick.

Another thing that irks me about Fahrenheit 451 is what I see as its lack of compassion. It connects books and reading to a sense of superiority. Books are good and if you read them, you too are good. Television is bad, and if you watch it you are a mindless drone. Classic books are great because they are great, and if you disagree then you're advocating for censorship. It's simplistic and shallow, but it gives people a great sense of validation if they can agree with the author. You, the reader, are not like the rest of society, the people who gawk at televisions and don't think. You are a reader, and that makes you better (why, we do not know).

I can already see that some people may have looked at my quotes from Bradbury on the subject of minorities and felt that dredging these up was unfair. I would like to say that I did not bring these up to slam Bradbury as a homophobe, a racist, or even just a generally insensitive person (though he may have been that as well). Rather, I think these comments go to the heart of Fahrenheit 451's message and why I dislike it so much.

Fahrenheit 451 appeals to people who want to see themselves as radicals despite mentally adhering to the status quo. Just as the heroic characters in the book see themselves as revolutionary for deifying authors who have been widely acclaimed critically and commercially for decades, Bradbury considers himself to be speaking truth to power by damning the exact marginalised groups which have been vilified by wider society for centuries. The fact that those organisations most famous for book burning also hated these exact same minority groups seems not to have occurred to Bradbury.

In order to end on a slightly positive note, I will say this: at the time that it was created in the era of McCarthyism, Fahrenheit 451 may well have provided an interesting, fresh perspective. Yet this does not change the fact that it is lacking in depth, empathy, or any great relevance today besides perhaps giving an idea of the concerns of the 1950s. The fact that it could be considered by anyone to rank among timeless works of great dystopian literature is evidence, to me, that it is truly overrated.

Tuesday, 21 January 2020

A Book That Makes Me Laugh // 30-Day Book Challenge - Day 7

Today is the seventh day of the 30-day book challenge, in which I will be writing about a different book or book series every day for 30 days, with each book chosen according to the daily prompt. Today's prompt is: "a book that makes you laugh".

I haven't always considered myself someone that was particularly close to their family. Not that I felt distant from them, just that I thought my relationship with my family was rather average in that respect. It's only been as I've got older, left home, and spoken to other people about their relationships with their families that I've come to realise I am comparatively rather close to mine.

Perhaps this is why, since going to university and moving away from my family, I've become increasingly fond of media which depicts family relationships. My current obsession in this vein is Bob's Burgers, in which the main family strikes what I believe to be a perfect balance between loving and charmingly eccentric. Another fictional family which manages to be sweet (without being twee) and funny (without being too dysfunctional) is the Durrell family, of My Family and Other Animals fame.

Nothing makes me happier than a well-executed, relatable family comedy (that is, a comedy focusing on a family). If Bob's Burgers marks the pinnacle of this sub-genre in television, then My Family and Other Animals is its potential literary counterpart. This is why I have picked this book as my choice for today's prompt, "a book that makes you laugh".


As far as I'm aware, My Family and Other Animals is quite a famous book. It was, after all, written about a famous family. The author, Gerald Durrell was a well-known naturalist and conservationist. Likewise, his brother Lawrence Durrell was a celebrated writer. As for the rest of the family, they might perhaps be less well-known if it weren't for the existence of Gerald Durrell's memoirs of their time spent in Corfu, of which My Family and Other Animals is the first in a series.

In case I'm wrong and this book is not quite iconic enough for you to have a proper outline of the plot (or perhaps you've just forgotten), here is a summary from Goodreads:
'What we all need,' said Larry, 'is sunshine...a country where we can grow.' ' 
Yes, dear, that would be nice,' agreed Mother, not really listening.  
'I had a letter from George this morning - he says Corfu's wonderful. Why don't we pack up and go to Greece?' 
'Very well, dear, if you like,' said Mother unguardedly.  
Escaping the ills of the British climate, the Durrell family - acne-ridden Margo, gun-toting Leslie, bookworm Lawrence and budding naturalist Gerry, along with their long suffering mother and Roger the dog - take off for the island of Corfu. But the Durrells find that, reluctantly, they must share their various villas with a menagerie of local fauna - among them scorpions, geckos, toads, bats and butterflies.
In short: slightly peculiar British family moves into a house in Corfu, where they encounter a range of animals and insects. Naturally, chaos and hilarity ensue.

The best thing about this book, to me, is the characters. Each member of the Durrell family is unique, with their own quirks that range from endearing to infuriating depending on the chapter. I'm not sure how accurate Gerald Durrell's depiction of his family is in comparison to real life, and to be quite frank I don't really care. He realistically portrays the mixture of love, irritation, and amusement that exists in all the funniest families, so whether it is true-to-life beyond that doesn't particularly concern me.

Whether the depiction of the many non-human creatures in the book is accurate is another question entirely, and unfortunately not one I'm able to answer. I would assume that Durrell himself, being a man who spent his life working with animals, would try to represent them as factually as possible in his writing, but then I don't know enough to say. Either way, I got the sense when reading that this was a book written by someone who truly loves and is fascinated by animals. All creatures, from the family dog Roger to the female mantis living in Gerry's bedroom, are depicted with warmth and humour. For the most part, Durrell's love for the animal world is infectious.

Getting back to the comedic aspect of the book - which this post is meant to focus on - the funniest and most memorable scenes come in the interactions between the two aforementioned main camps of the My Family and Other Animals books: the family and the animals. There are a number of really amusing scenes in the book, which I won't go into in much detail as I don't want to spoil it for anyone who hasn't read it yet. That said, if you ever do read it, keep an eye out for the scenes with the scorpions and those with the Magenpies (you'll know what that means when they make their appearance).

Finally, I'd like to end this post by mentioning the recent adaptation of the Corfu trilogy on BBC: The Durrells. Out of principle, I don't normally like to mention film adaptations of books when discussing the source material, lest anyone be under the illusion that watching the film is an appropriate substitute for actually reading the book. However, The Durrells is such a good TV series that I'm willing to make an exception for it. It has all the charm and laughter of the book, in addition to some brilliant acting by a great cast. In addition to the original book (which you really should read regardless), I would highly recommend the series. Hopefully, at least one of them will make you laugh as much as I did.

Monday, 20 January 2020

A Book That Makes Me Sad // 30-Day Book Challenge - Day 6

Today is the sixth day of the 30-day book challenge, in which I will be writing about a different book or book series every day for 30 days, with each book chosen according to the daily prompt. Today's prompt is: "a book that makes you sad".

I didn't expect today's prompt to be as difficult as it was. As I mentioned in my previous post about a book that makes me happy, I have read plenty of less-than-joyful books in my time. Yet perhaps that was what made this challenge difficult: the amount of books to choose from. To narrow things down, I started to get quite specific about the criteria, in a way that wasn't necessarily indicated in the prompt. The prompt specifically said "sad", after all - not depressing, or miserable, or tear-jerking (that's the prompt for another challenge). This left me with two challenges instead of one: in addition to choosing a book, I also had to define what "sadness" meant.

Needless to say, I had been making the issue far more complicated than it needed to be, as is my nature. In the end, I decided to simply pick a book I've read recently that made me feel sad. Nothing more complicated than that. So without further ado, I shall now present to you my chosen sad book: The Man Without a Shadow by Joyce Carol Oates.


The way in which I encountered this book was somewhat unusual for me. When I went on holiday over Christmas, I made the mistake of only taking one book with me, which I was already 75% of the way through. I finished this book on my first day away, leaving me tragically book-less. Naturally, this led to a trip to the local bookshop of the nearest French town. Since the English selection was rather small (only about half a dozen shelves in an otherwise well-stocked selection), I decided that I would deliberately choose a novel I had never heard of before. I thought this would be an interesting challenge for myself, as usually I only buy books which I have previously heard of and/or read about online. 

The Man Without a Shadow caught my eye because I had already read another book by Joyce Carol Oates, Foxfire. Having enjoyed that, I was keen to read more of her work. The plot of The Man Without a Shadow also piqued my curiosity, so there wasn't any question of me leaving the bookshop with anything else. 

The basic plot summary, courtesy of my edition's back cover, is as follows:
In 1965, a young research scientist named Margot Sharpe is introduced to Elihu Hoopes, an attractive, charismatic amnesiac whose short-term memory has been devastated by a brief illness. 
By dedicating her professional life to him, Margot establishes for herself an exceptional career in the rapidly expanding field of neuroscience. 
But where is the line between scientific endeavour and personal obsession?
Sounds intriguing, doesn't it? The plot of the book reminded me a bit of Flowers for Algernon, another novel that considers the ethical and emotional fallout that comes from using humans as scientific test subjects. Like Flowers for Algernon, we go into The Man Without a Shadow more or less knowing that the story is not going to end happily. That said, the rest of this post will contain spoilers for the novel, so if you want to avoid that, I suggest you stop reading now.

*WARNING: SPOILERS BELOW*

The sadness of The Man Without a Shadow is multi-layered. Most obviously, we have the sadness of Eli's condition, which originated from an infection contracted when he was 37 and left him unable to form memories after that point. The title comes from Margot's observation that, in having no memory beyond the last seventy seconds, Eli has become a man without a past, without anything behind him - a man without a shadow. His lack of memory prevents him from making plans for the future, too, with the result being that Eli is a man permanently trapped in the present. He is aware of his condition and yet unable to do anything to alleviate it. As his family and friends become increasingly less tolerant of his symptoms and thus become more and more distant, Eli is left with only the people who treat him as a science project for company. As the book goes on, we are given greater insight into how Eli perceives the world. In sections written from his perspective, we see that Eli is a disorientated, scared man, who has a vague sense of being trapped and yet - by the very nature of his entrapment - is forever unable to escape.

The protagonist, Margot, is another tragic figure. Lonely and work-obsessed, she craves human contact but at the same time seems to deliberately isolate herself. She too is trapped, although in her case it is within the role of the "Chaste Daughter" which she believes herself to fit into. While at first she finds some comfort in an affair with her supervisor, Milton Ferris, she is upset by the realisation that Ferris doesn't feel the same way about her as she does about him - and, later, she becomes even more distressed as she is tossed aside when Ferris decides to direct his attention towards his newer, younger subordinates. 

The relentless progress of aging is another cause for sadness in the book. This is not to say that aging is inherently sad, but in this book it certainly is. While Margot gains professional success as she gets older, she also becomes further isolated, which in turn causes her relationship with Eli to become increasingly obsessive and unethical. Eli, meanwhile, suffers as greater distance is put between himself and the period of his life which he is able to remember: the time before the incident which caused him to lose his memory at the age of 37. With each year that goes by, the man he sees in the mirror becomes ever more unrecognisable. His friends and family die or drift away, leaving him alone. 

The culmination of the sadness and loneliness that both these characters feel comes in their relationship with one another. In different ways, they are each the other's whole world - Margot, because she has devoted her entire life to studying Eli; Eli, because he can remember nothing but the person in front of him, who so often happens to be Margot. 

Make no mistake, though: this is not an equal relationship. While both characters become co-dependent out of their personal loneliness and need for human comfort, it is Margot who is abusing her power in this situation. To me, this is perhaps the most tragic aspect of the book. Whereas Margot was once the powerless figure in her relationship with Ferris, her married superior, in her relationship with Eli she becomes the abuser instead. As the person in charge of the so-called "project" which is Eli's condition, Margot comes to be in a position of authority over him. On top of this, she abuses his memory loss by outright lying to him, knowing he cannot tell if what she says is the truth. She tells him she is his wife, that they are in love, and then uses that suggestion to coerce him into a romantic and sexual relationship. It is implied at points that Eli is distantly aware of Margot's abuse, but his condition means he is never able to properly express it.

From the moment we read the first lines of The Man Without a Shadow, we know it is not going to be a happy book. The book's very premise is sad enough, but the plot proceeds with unrelenting suffering and pain from start to tragic finish. The saddest part of all is how the characters, memory-less or no, are all trapped in vicious cycles. They become more withdrawn, more obsessive, more miserable as the years go by. At the end of the novel, Eli is dead, unable to break this cycle. If their patterns of behaviour are anything to go by, the rest of the characters will most likely end their lives in much the same way.

Friday, 17 January 2020

This is Just to Say

I am taking
a break
from the blog
book challenge

which
you were probably
looking
forward to

Forgive me
it was exhausting
so tiring
and so long


(The blog challenge is taking a break for the weekend and will resume on Monday - have a good weekend everyone!)